I Never Promised You A Rose Garden

@image- emma hardy

What do you mean love love you love me? Do you mean didn't sleep all night because the baby woke at every hour with her whimper mouth rose? Do you mean the child is hurt all the time with the righteous anger of the young and directs it at us with all her eye rolling grownups are so dumbdumb power? Do you mean how is it we paid off allllll that debt and still...there's more.. are you sure? there's more? ahh it's all medical see how sick gets you broke in America? it's all Maggie needs another surgery? how fucking ruuude, let's charge her up the ass for it. it's all Ever has RSV and needs IV and oxygen and a special specialized doctor? how soon to ask for medical care in our opinion, chaching! They call asking for their money with their eyes screwed shut and mouths big and blabbering. They don't know and they don't want to know.

Each day is a complete and total parallel:

One line looks like this and says you are so lucky so blessed this is the family you always wanted

The next line looks like>> this///)+!@ and >>> says exhaustion
tepid thoughts >>>> evaporate
nothing to say>>>> too tired
post partum depression>>>>eating too much sugar
workfulltimeworkfulltimeworkfulltimeworkfulltimeworkfulltimeworkfulltimeworkfulltime
saggy body>> tired body>>>unwashed hair dirty shirts>>>babysick
writewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewritewrite
children my children our children our children
sensitive>>>vulnerable>failing>>unsure>>>horny>tootired
dishes??dogs??bathroom??sunroom??backyard??

HERE IS MY LIST IF I MAKE LISTS THINGS WILL HAPPEN THERE WILL BE TIME MADE
plant vegetables/extremecouponing/lolalearnbike/sex/organizepilespilesofpaperwork/

And bullhorn: I"M NOT COMPLAINING IT"S JUST THAT I"M TOTALLY COMPLAINING

it will get better
is supposed to be a slogan for bullied gay kids but i think it works for mothers of babies as well

ps
tell me it will get better!

pss
i mean i totally know it will, it's just i've never worked full time with a baby, never before!!! and...
i can officially say,,,it's amazing,,,that's the word for it

psss
tell me anyway....

pssssssssss
ever has bronchitis:(