Saturday, February 5, 2011

close your eyes and make a memory

Around 9pm Ever and I stared at each other, our faces inches apart in the darkness. She had woken to nurse and I had heard her little chortling snuffly nose and done the saline/sucker treatment, changed her and laid us both down. Lola lay next to us, falling asleep, Mr. Curry was already asleep in Lola and Ever's room ( ...follow me here, the girls sleep in our bed with either just myself or both Mr. Curry and I, while nights where Mr. Curry needs to actually, you know, sleep, he goes into the girl's room. Last night he went to bed early to awake at 4am this Saturday and work; working a six day week almost every week these days, with my maternity leave cutting our income drastically. ) and Ian watched TV in the living room. I could hear the television's murmuring and see light from the living room filtered down the hallway. Ever's wide blue eyes stared at me seriously, the skin above them puckered in two question marks. And suddenly, she smiled at me, a huge beaming sunshine Beatlesesque smile where the entire room felt illuminated with the light of her smile and her eyes. I smiled back and began crying, tears of joy sliding from my cheeks to the sheets. Life felt absolutely and completely perfect. This is happiness, I said to myself, exactly this. I am happy.
Lindsey said...

So lovely ... so, so, so. xox

Elisabelle said...

i know the feeling...

Holli said...

I love this...so beautiful.

Petit fleur said...

radiant.

Vodka Mom said...

each moment, each smile, each breath is a gift.


An amazing, amazing gift.

But don't worry- in fifteen years she'll be calling you and @(#*ing beyotch. trust me.

Ellen said...

That is beautiful Maggie...my word when I have those times is "bliss"...there is nothing like it and tears of joy are the absolute best!!!!

~Amber Elise~ said...

OH god, those moments...

Elizabeth said...

I can see it -- that light that illuminates everything!

Elizabeth @claritychaos said...

I'm so glad you are so happy. what a moment to capture, Maggie.

Darcy said...

nailed. it.

Drax said...

Aaaaaaw! What a beautiful "first item/post read" for a Sunday morning!

Angella Lister said...

ahhhh maggie. i know this moment. it fuels me still.

clearness said...

Very lovely memory.

girlintheroom.com said...

You are so right. That IS happiness. Those are the moments we live for---the ones that sustain us.

Annie said...

Hi Maggie,
I'm still smiling, reading this! A beautiful post capturing beautiful moments.

Sarcastic Bastard said...

It's great to realize happiness.

Love you, Maggie.

Caroline of Salsa Pie said...

It's perfect love. absolutely perfect.

Miss Tricky said...

It's those little moments in the midst of all the mess...

Therese said...

Those are the moments that sustain us.

Mwa said...

I get that when Charlie's sucking on my cheek.

skull.kitten said...

those moments are so perfect!*sigh*

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