Sunday, September 27, 2009

in sickness and in health

I'm definitely in a struggle to stay afloat phase of life. There is something major that effects my life that I've been requested not to talk about on here and since it effects my life SO profoundly when it comes up, I feel kind of mute lately, on the personal front.

Questions I Can Not Answer In Full or At All Right Now

1 What is wrong?

2 What is going on with Mr. Curry?

3 Why are you so quiet lately?

4 Where is the chocolate?

Out of respect for his wishes I can't discuss what has shaped my life on a daily basis for over a month right now, and because of the nature of who I am, how I write and think and feel and connect, working around that is almost impossible. So I suppose I'm pointing a big red arrow at the missing parts









There. That was the non-paragraph where I told you all about it.

No, we are not getting divorced. And no, no one cheated on anyone.

So....uhmmm... how bout the weather lately? Did you hear Roman Polanski was arrested by the Swiss? And Mrs Moon had her first grandbaby, Owen!!!

My thyroid is really bad right now. I'm exhausted. I slept all day Saturday when I wanted to be doing so many other wonderful things. I literally slept all day. Until ten pm. Woke until midnight, slept again until ten am today. I am waiting for the bloodwork results to see if the medication needs adjusting. Dakota puked all night at a friend's house and arrived home today miserable. He is now sleeping. Poor kid has been sick three times in so many weeks. Our kittens are making me so happy. Our teenage cats are ridiculously cute. The adults are just concerned with why there has been no wet food all week. I'm already thinking about Christmas presents and what we can make for gifts for everyone who is not our children. It's so hot here in San Diego, like 100 degrees.

mosey along said...

Aside from whatever it *is* that is going on in your life, with Mr. Curry, your thyroid, etc., (and I do hope the improvement on all fronts comes sooner than later), I can relate on the how much to reveal on the blog issue. When I first started mine, I went a little beyond my hubby's comfort level compounded by me inadvertently posting a picture that showed his...um... butt crack (photo since removed!). A happy medium is hard to attain.

I'm wishing you wellness.

Bee said...

I know what you mean. I do.
The longer I blog, the harder it is to stay away from the things that are truly worrying me or making me happy -- even when I know they are too private to share.

I hope that you can sort yourself out physically, because that sort of drain never helps, and maybe even causes or exacerbates all of the other stuff. Sending you best wishes; wishing that I could send more.

michelle said...

It's just damn hard sometimes...

Ocean Girl said...

Hi Maggie. It is good to direct attention to nice thoughts like gifts for Christmas. It helps, I would think.

Annie K said...

Hi Maggie, You can write it, and keep it all to yourself, like a diary, and destroy it later, if you must; but it will help you to process what you're feeling. You never did have to tell us all.

I hope you and your son are both feeling better, and you get a break in the weather soon. I also live in a hot climate, and I'm begging for summer to end, and our mild fall to begin.

Congratulations, Mrs. Moon!

Elizabeth said...

So sorry to hear of your troubles. I swear to God I think there's some kind of major planetary alignment or whatever the hell that might be that is causing so much stress and anxiety and sadness and despair to all people who think. I hope it lifts soon, though.

Love and support to you....

krista said...

for better or worse...this is what they mean, huh?
i respect you greatly for not writing about something that affects someone else. there is another blog i read occasionally written by a woman who writes absolutely everything. i definitely am drawn to her truth and her raw honesty but sometimes i feel a bit awkward, chasing other people's inner secrets without earning it.
does that even make sense?
keep with your fiction mama...maybe you'll be able to get some of the emotion out without the messiness of airing other people's truths.

Shaista said...

The unspoken, unwritten codes of loyalty and honour are the real tests of character.
I'm going into hosp tomorrow morning, and I wanted to give you a big hug before going - now it's an extra extra big hug.
You have given so much light and love and hope and inspiration - may all of it prism right back to both of you in the coming months.

katiecrackernuts said...

Hang on kiddo. There was screaming and clawing at flesh and more screaming at my place on Friday and Saturday morning. Tired. Tired. Tired. No divorce but there was a battle and now it's just quiet on the home front. I'm battle weary.

Rachael said...

re: #4, Wish I could send you chocolate through the internet! In lieu of, sending virtual positive thoughts and wishes that all will be right and well soon.

Glimmer said...

Mercury is retrograde, or so I'm told, and causing all kinds of you knkow what. It goes back soon. Thank goodness!

Maggie May said...

ah! i love all you's alls. smootch. ( i have champagne breath )

SJ said...

I love the champagne breath! Here for you.

Elizabeth Bradley said...

Feel better. I cannot think about Christmas yet. No way.

Tracey - Just Another Mommy Blog said...

I hate it when I can't write about what's really going on. I have several issues that are "unbloggable" right now. So guess what I AM writing about? Fluff. Fluffy, fluffy, air.

Ticks me off.

Hope things are ok.

yolanda said...

i am stressed.
so sorry for you!!!!
i love you, you know that!
yolanda

Vashti said...

I am also going through it at the moment. things that i also cant/wont talk about on here. I am praying for you my friend, I am praying for peace and joy to flood you and your family.
love of love.
Vxx

starrlife said...

As Peter Pan says (listening to it alot these days)- Think lovely thoughts! I'm sending some to you for a well deserved break. Try not to get too worn down, take care of yourself- watch the kittens- they know what they are doing!
My word veri says "sheable"!

Blogging Mama Andrea said...

While I don't know what's going on, I hope things get better. Thinking of you and the Mr.

Mwa said...

*hugs*

My husband doesn't want me to write about wanting another baby. Which, some days, is all I can think about. He's a bit paranoid about his friends or family finding my blog. He never said anything about comments, though. :-)

Hang in there, girl.

Petit fleur said...

The chocolate's at our house... sorry!

Hope it all gets "right" soon.

Much love,
pf

Petit fleur said...

OH MY GOSH! Elizabeth just reminded me of something... the planet Mercury IS in retrograde right now. As far as I can tell it has been in this position since Sept 7th, and should really begin getting better around Oct 18th. However, my understanding is that things should slowly begin turning around on Sept 29th. (That's when it begins heading in the right direction again.

So, Liz is correct, the planets are messed up right now.. or at least one that we know of.
Hang on!
pf

anna said...

Take care Maggie May. Its so tough dealing with stuff when you're not feeling well. breathe in, breathe out. in the hard times sometimes life is lived minute by minute

That one girl said...

Oh no, I thought you guys were doing good!!!

So, where is the chocolate?

Sorry about the thyroid. That totally sucks. Keep your head up and keep eating all the healthy food you talked about in one of your previous posts. I believe in the power of food, positive thoughts and exercise FOR SURE!

Okay, have a better week and enjoy the heat... soon we'll be in the freezing category and I'll be jealous of those temps!!!

Phoenix said...

I respect that there are things you cannot write about out of respect for other people's boundaries. I edit a lot of my blogs for that same reason.

I hope you have a journal or another private blog somewhere where you can at least get this weight off your shoulders in a safe environment.

Everybody needs to expel their demons.

Be full of care for yourself.

Simply Mel said...

Maggie May...hoping you find a happy reprieve soon! You, Mr. Curry, the kiddies!

Sarcastic Bastard said...

Sending love, Maggie. You are in my thoughts.

SB

hayley said...

I think this is the second time I've agreed with Krista. Keep writing your fiction... it will help get all the stuff out without it being the stuff that you don't/can't write about.

Hang in there. Rough times are not easy, but eventually, they do play themselves out and things calm down.

Heidi said...

there is definitely something amiss in the universe right now maggie... i can so relate... we just found out that we have to return to oz after only 8 months in nz because the job we thought was permanent and long-term has turned out to be one of the many they are cost-cutting in this economic down-turn. it's ***ked and it's devastating and i am so angry... but we are not in control of this life, are we? rest, rest and rest some more... oh, and lets those kitty's give you all the love and purrs you can handle. hx

Courtney D said...

Sounds like "things" are a challenge these days. And, while I can't relate to what said "things" are- I can imagine how hard it must be to sift through without the ability to work it out in writing. good luck...

Miss Grace said...

You're in my thoughts love.

Laura said...

I am sorry for whatever is going on... and I am also sorry you can not talk about it. I hope things get better soon. I wish I knew what was wrong :(

Ms. Moon said...

Maggie- Oh honey. Oh honey. Can I help?

Amber said...

Just wanted to wish you the best and the best outcome possible with whatever is going on for you and Mr. Curry.

just making my way said...

Champagne breath is the best. It's a tough line to walk, there's no question. And real life always takes precedent. We love you no matter what.

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