Wednesday, April 25, 2012

in spite of my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

you used to say 
you were a tomboy
genius a
calligraphy major.
now you ?
change is managed
by the broken 
collect it
at cost.

a headache a backache a stomach ache a pulled muscle in the left upper shoulder follow the wave of tendon to the wall of neck. my stress goes. where does it come? on your tits! the tsunami of stress is foul mouthed. illiterate. ignorant. small. meta. 

until i release myself from believing my own bullshit this will continue.
to bad for me i'm so persuasive.

my book says 'You can transcend all negative when you realize that the only power it has over you is your belief in it. As you experience this truth about yourself you are set free.' -eileen caddy

few words are as beautiful.  you are set free
few words.

all the answers are already there. if only i will read them, believe them, enact them, and live in them.

i'm laughing weakly.
but still laughing.

Caroline said...

Yes, Maggie.

Brilliant. As always.


Petit fleur said...

I will send you an email about what is called a "pass through moment" by some. It is when someone says something to you, or you encounter a stranger and they tell you something, something important... only it isn't coming from them. They are a conduit for something/someone else and you feel it. You can never really prove it or anything, but you know because you feel it's imact and the hair on the back your neck stands up.

I'm Katie. said...

Damn the persuasive self.


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